I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about my current walk with God – and my current assesment is that God is messy, but that’s because he’s dealing with messy people. There is so much jacked up stuff in this world, and for me, the picture just keeps growing and getting bigger and bigger. My heart is overwhelmed by the mess. The only thing that keeps me going is worshipping God, allowing him to show me his love, and with every love encounter with him I can not do anything but worship him.
There is a lot I could write about, so much, so many people and things that are a burden right now. None of it is “bad”, it’s all just big, messy, and hard to deal with. This messy God, is a great and amazing God, and for whatever reason, this is a season of learning all about what he sees, and it isn’t all good- it’s heart wrenching. Yet, knowing these things, feeling what I believe he feels, humbles me to the point of nearly constant prayer and worship. My feelings and emotions are raw, and they are hard to explain, I feel sad, angry, and overwhelmed with love all at the same time.