- @TriMet ticket machine #12 at west bound Civic DR not accepting any form of payment. #
- Be the same person on and off the network. #TodaysThought #
- @mheternal I need you to meet my buddy Chris from Poland, pronto…. eh I mean teraz! #
- Glad I have unlimited restarts. #
- @mheternal dang, if I had thought about it, I would've brought the Poles to #creationfest ! #
- Today is one of those days where all I want is a PB&J sandwich. :/ #
- What is this #YouTube movies box thing in #PDX Pioneer Square?? #
- Stories like this: http://j.mp/pXDgtm, are why I still believe in providing hope to the world. Heart wrenching, yes, and lovely all at once. #
- @mheternal Men's Pottiquette http://sgp.cm/ccc2fd // Amen brother!Ā #
- It's time to watch BSG on #NetFlix on my T-Mobile Android powered phone… it's been awesome. #
- An afternoon downtown http://sgp.cm/7677ab #
- RT @fox12oregon: Just in: Woman fabricated story of sexual assault behind Gresham Borders store. http://bit.ly/pIOV86 // I thought so…! #
- Needs to search for lunch food, I hate doing that. #
- PDX afternoon on 7/28/2011 http://pi.pe/-eb19a5 #
- PDX afternoon on 7/28/2011 http://pi.pe/-6pyw45 #
- PDX afternoon on 7/28/2011 http://pi.pe/-jkbv9u #
- Esterka and Emma PDX, director park. 7/28/2011 http://pi.pe/-jbex1i #
- I'm @ null #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-h8hunh #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-rdoy7g #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-kwv9pu #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-upkiry #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-3q4eke #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-mf04dv #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-awyo6i #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-u8ajq7 #
- posted a photo http://pi.pe/-4qaekr #
- Vancouver Columbia Trail at sunset http://pi.pe/-2km81w #
- Multnomah Falls July 30, 2011 http://pi.pe/-zt27bi #
- I'm @ null #
Month: July 2011
Tweets for the past week
- #Netflix goes down Ug… just as I was about to start the third episode of Battle Star Galatica.. š and it's raining outside. #pdx #fail #
- @patrickweed Haha.. yes – I just started, and I get very little time to watch uninterrupted, today would've been perfect, I'm on season 1. #
- B/C #Netflix is down, I decided read life journal early today, what a gem! http://j.mp/pxmznR Especially Col 4. Great reminder of the goal. #
- @patrickweed yes, tried on our Windows Media Center on two comps, my phone, and multiple web browsers… worked for a bit on web… then no. #
- Danger Will Robinson – I'm in a bad mood. Time to relax while I watch Battle Star Galatica, & Alexis watches her own movie.#netflixisback #
- No more book store in Gresham (all Borders stores closing) š http://j.mp/pg5ZoP – no more Seattle's Best either! š #
- @utech you're on my heart in prayer and petitions. May Col 4 be of encouragement. #
- @bkraft2012 it's more about losing a place where so many people gathered. I never really got coffee there, just their blended drinks š #
- I really need to come back to earth, all I really want to do is explore space and other planets… #TooMuchBSGandST #
- @thinxtoomuch It's communicable, but not a disease š #
- Websites that don't have mobile versions are like shopping with paper checks… especially news sites. #GetWithTheTimes #
- Due to rampant narcissism/sensationalism, I kindly ask for people to pause, research, think, & consider all sides, before speaking/posting. #
- @carlybish Who's your hoster? #
- @carlybish Oh don't worry, no shame, our domains are w/ Godaddy as well, and we host w/ them too (which actually has fantastic service). #
- @carlybish GoDaddy actually ups my service level automatically for no charge if there is a temporary bump in demand. After 30 days $ is due. #
- @carlybish Lol you're welcome – was, great pics by the way! š #
- @Pastor_Jas Happy Birthday! #
- @maxfaqs did the type 2/3s have as many issues as the type 4s in their first years? #
- @maxfaqs Yeah, this morning we got stuck behind a type 4 that died… seems I see more of them with issues than the others. #
- @maxfaqs Oh yeah, I remember, I wanted to ride one forever, and then, I wasn't so excited after seeing them break down. As for Calgary LOL #
- And the weekend begins! Camping with Krzysiek & @sparkey_7 & and our daughters with the rest of @easthillfamily dads & daughters. #TheBest #
Tweets for the past week
- @FrostyPixie try Google maps and when you click on directions click on the transit directions option (bus icon). #
- Our building on a moon lit night. http://pi.pe/-kzvquw #
- Pondering my victories and failures today… Loving the fact that I am included in THE victory! Hard to live it out regularly though……. #
- rename *.life *.refresh #
- Does anyone have an extra tension rod we can have? Needs to fit a space only 38.5 inches wide. Thanks. #
- Well, I finally contacted Comcast about our Internet service, we were paying $67/month, now it will be $46/month and 5Mbps faster (20 now)! #
- @boostpower Online chat: http://j.mp/pK4U5q – told them FIOS was cheaper & I've been a long term customer, & I was super nice to the rep. #
- @boostpower So they upgraded me to "Blast" and added a promotion for 39.99 first six months, then 49.99 the next 6. #
- @boostpower But it did take over an hour to make it all happen (lots of waiting). #
- @boostpower They might still work with you, just let them know you feel it's unfair that new customers get a better deal than existing. #
- How we receive the words of another, does not determine what the other meant. #
- I'm @ null #
- @KerstinMISSION wooohoo! Indeed! #
- Creepy… it's absolutely quiet on this fully loaded train! #miraclesdohappen ! #
- Very odd… my entire #TriMet MAX ride from downtown to Gresham was silent…. ok with me! Forgot my headphones! #
- "Church" has little to do w/ leadership, & more to do w/ the people. The people and leadership SHARE in living out the mission. #notamerican #
- Looks like a painting out there today! http://pi.pe/-o23xae #
- Well today is the complete opposite #TriMet MAX commute… yelling and cussing and announcements blaring. Have my headphones today though! #
Tweets for the past week
- Enjoying the 4th of July parade in Bothell. š #
- Waiting for some big fireworks on Lake Washington! http://pi.pe/-a1cc1k #
- Happy Independence Day! http://pi.pe/-1gci5o #
- Facebook is suggesting I send Alexis a message for our anniversary on Saturday… I think I need to do more than a message…. ya think!? #
- Celebrating 5 years of marriage today! Found our original vows, my love for Alexis will only grow more deep. To 50 more years! #
- I'm @ null #
Restart
I’m simply glad that we have a new beginning everyday with the Lord. For a variety of reasons, mostly relational, I have been challenged over the couple of years in ways I never imagined. I consider myself a very loyal person, I don’t “leave behind” relationships easily, I always try to make sure the lines of communication are open and clear, that people understand, and most of all that my love for them is the driving factor. Ā However, these last couple of years have presented challenges which, at this point, I am simply stuck – unable to do much of anything but pray. As I wait for God and/or others to make the “move”, I find myself incredibly challenged and frustrated. Ā There are times where I so badly want to yell at the other parties and make them “restart” and actually let God’s principles take place… but we are human, and so therefore, part of God’s principles are human in nature, because we are made in his image… (this is all very messy). Thus, with this humanity stuff mixed in, things can’t just “restart” and be back to “normal” or even some kind of “modified normal” in aĀ time-frameĀ I like.
So, I sit here today, still stunned, and when I think about everything (over the last couple of years) I begin to wonder will my ideal “restart” ever look like reality? At least I know, personally, God has given me a restart, and I gratefully take it at every chance I remember to (which is far less than I should). The strongest piece of truth I hold onto is the fact that God gave me clear words over the past year, the victory is His and can not be taken… obviously I need to ask what that looks like… because my picture sure isn’t reality (at this time). Love empowers, I just pray that I am continually refilled to continually pour out.
Freedom
The history of the United States is amazing, with some very dark spots, and some huge mistakes, yet we have moved forward past those dark times and created a place where people can be free – at least free to choose a life they want. I am not a crazy America lovingĀ Christian, most of the time I am embarrassed when the Church starts worshiping the nation… and I can’t stand singing “American hymns” (i.e. God Bless America) in Church – it makes me sick to my stomach. Ā Church is about us gathering to encourage one another in life with God’s guidance, Church is not a place for us to celebrate our culture, our national identity, nor a specific idea – except the idea of God’s kingdom. Ā I love my country, I am moved many times by our history, and many times I have shed a few tears when I hear veterans speak, and watch documentaries about America, however, I just can’t see the obsession some American Christians have about mixing Church and America in one idea. Ā IĀ tolerateĀ it because I love the Church more than I love America, and Jesus’ heart is for us to haveĀ toleranceĀ for one another, and be in unity (John 17, and Romans 1).
Freedom for me is the incredible and amazing gift of grace that I have received from Jesus himself – the ability to pour grace on others, to love the fringe communities, to see beyond sexual orientation, to see people for who they are – this is freedom. To see God’s heart all around, and to know that I am in the Kingdom and that it is me that will extend this Kingdom – this is freedom. Being OK with the fact that the majority of Christians I interact with have a hard time understanding the GBLT community. Also, the fact that most of theĀ suburban, white, “republican” and “conservative” people I know, haven’t tried to understand the “left’s” heart, is frustrating and heart-breaking, but doesn’t distract me from loving them too. Ā You see, I have a freedom that goes beyond the “lines” and it transcends the communities.
The place where I fight for this freedom is expressing it, and being bold in it (as I described in yesterday’s post). I can be both a republican and a democrat, and at the same time a Christian and a relevant person to those around me – but most of all I can be the love for both sides of the fence… (besides, is there really just two sides?). I will be in the camp above all camps… I am a citizen of the King and live in His kingdom. I want to walk in THAT freedom!
Tweets for the past week
- Happy Monday – suicide with a MAX train, people with returning cancer, crazy killers, homeless girl on my train. #lovefirst #itmatters #pdx #
- @tmielonen Updated blog: My confliction http://bit.ly/jOg1tj #
- #geekout Watching the Battlestar Galatica for the first time, episode 1. Will Emma's bath last 95 min for the pilot? #
- Visualizing the best in everyone around me and in myself today! #
- Can't say I dislike the weather in LA. http://pi.pe/-ir0zsc #
- So, what happens now? So tired…I am. #
- We're in Seattle for the next week! Fireworks with friends, always the bestest! Contact us to hang out! #
- Little girl big ferry http://pi.pe/-c0b2nr #
- Seriously, PDX can't beat this. http://pi.pe/-66fo6z #
- Yeah, PDX can't beat it. http://pi.pe/-5khrvb #
- What are you hearing and seeing today? #
- SEA skyline and Sbux coffee with Alexis… pretty darn good night! http://pi.pe/-ozm9i5 #
- SEA skyline and Sbux coffee with Alexis… pretty darn good night! http://pi.pe/-dbm9qj #
- @mheternal Dude, have you tried to watch Soccer live? It's actually AWESOME just like Hockey… I'll digress š #
- I'm @ Mill Creek Four Square Church #
The stifled drive
This is a continuation of my last post, after a few days of mulling things over I have realized one of the core frustration points in my life… I feel stifled… unfortunately (as is usually the case) I’m not in control (heh, that seems to be how this world is set up). However, I have given these frustrations a lot of thought and prayer and have come to terms with them. I have huge dreams and hopes to make a difference in this world, I don’t really care to be “someone” remembered, I just want to consistently make a difference in people’s lives. Ā I have put a lot of my hopes, dreams, and ambitions into pleasing others – that’s not my goal, so that’s my first term to a different direction. Recently, a friend of mine has been encouraging the boldness factor in me, I find boldness from time to time, I just wish I could sustain it. Ā Too often my boldnessĀ disappearsĀ because I don’t like to argue, and many times it seems most people just want to go on without seeing another side – so I think to myself “what’s the point of trying.”
I guess part of the issue is that it takes a lot of energy to actually care, the funny thing with me is that I care so much, that I exhaust myself “caring” before I can even express the love. Ā This is when I feel stifled, caring so much, wanting to see a difference, but after witnessing so many not wanting to listen, or truly care themselves, I have become jaded. Ā I don’t want to throw pearls at swine, I guess all to often I figure that’s the category people are in… the swine pit… that’s not very caring now is it? Ā This whole debacle is a classic trap of “the enemy”, get me to think/fear one thing, so I can’t live out my passions, so I become frustrated and “unable” live out the Kingdom.
So this entirely outlines the need for a close relationship to God, for the inter-dependency of the Church to help us be connected with reality, and for the honest to God humility of one’s heart. Ā There’s a lot stored up in me right now, but do the above stated “frustration” I feel stuck – however, I have access to a solution – it’s God’s restart button – MERCY and GRACE. Ā I don’t have to worry about my thoughts from the past, I can start over today and act according to my passion and call today, sure it might make some heads turn (especially my wife) – but I can explain it, walk away from the shame, and move on. Ā This is the beauty of living as a child of God, saved by the Son, and living in his kingdom.