A world without God is a world that I fear to imagine. Yet many people live in a world without God, they go about day to day, without any more than a fleeting idea of God. So why am I so fearful to imagine a world without God? Because I know God, I live with God around me, in me, and through me. Because even though I fail to obey, and I do things which are contrary to God’s word, I find that the God’s grace is more than just a simple “I forgive you”, it’s a reality in which I know that no matter how I live, my God will be there for me to turn to. Humans can turn God into so much, from a letter of the law judge, to a magic fairy who grants you everything you ever wanted. In my experience God is neither, God is mysterious, yet personal, God is loving, yet just.
If I were to imagine a world without my God, I would see a world full of hurt, evil, injustice, greed, abuse, hunger, confusion, and chaos with no way out. As I make the choice to draw closer to God, I see that the love, justice, freedom, life, authority are not just benefits, but are the way God shows his intense affection for me, for us. Take away those things and it’s one big world, and a huge void. I was in that void once before, I never want to go back. Yet everyday I make choices which are either of the world, or of God. When I follow God’s ways, I am fulfilled, when I choose my own, worldly way, I am sick, troubled, and empty – not because I feel some “religious guilt” but because I know what the feelings of true satisfaction in God are – they are not easily explained in words, and that satisfaction is what I live for. If had to choose one word to try and describe it – it would be peace.
Reaching this peace requires a lot of flesh burning, a lot of humility, and in the end a lot of forgiveness. It’s well worth it, trust me.