Have this generation see.

May you live in all of us.

Have your news spread.

Our generation longs for you.

It longs for you.

Touch the others for you.

Have them see your love.

Have them touched by you.

The whole long for you.

They long for you.

The lost want you.

They search for you.

We want to bring them to you.

Our generation will live for you.

Live for you alone.

This is a new generation.

Open to you.

Let us serve you.

We love you,

we love everyone.

We love you,

we love everyone.

Every sunrise is yours.

Everyday we will work for you.

So this is who I am

I use to have a fuse the length of my pinky, but now I only get mad at machines which should be in working order and have no apparent reason for not working. I use to have sexual fantasies all the time, but now I have dreams of being in heaven with God forever and that is more exciting than anything I can reproduce here on earth by my self. I use to think the world was going got end, everything was getting worse, people were generally mean and had no meaning, but now I know we all have a purpose and unless you’ve met God you will always feel empty. I use to be shy, I hated talking to people I didn’t know because I just knew they didn’t like me for some reason, so why talk to them, now I love all people I know some people still don’t like me for whatever reason, but it’s not my fault. I have real brothers and sisters now, brothers and sisters who I will enjoy forever.

Although my past is not the greatest, it has made me who I am, and I will not be ashamed of it. I have more confidence now than I did just a year ago, and every day it gets better, and it’s a Godly confidence, not an overbearing one. God gives me joy that is unspeakable; he gives me love that is irresistible I can’t fight it! He took my shame and I believe it, he shines his light on amazing grace and I receive it! God has battled for my spirit and the invasion is complete and I like it! I was down and broken, thrown into the mud, stomped on, spit on, laughed at, hurt in every way imaginable but now I am a new person.

I have found myself; I have found myself in Christ. I have been set free of the sins of this world, I know I will have times where I will fall, but I am forgiven because I truly want to change. All I want to do is serve. I still have things to work on, I’m still lazy, unless I have an outside person to be accountable towards or be threatened by, I will continue to be late to work, I recognize this, but in the morning I don’t!!! But I know I am blessed, all I have to do is wake up in the morning to realize that. I want to dance in the streets and sing of his mercy to everyone! My love overflows, my brain hurts just thinking about the possibilities, I feel so lame sometimes, I feel so selfish for sharing with everyone! Why do I get to have this love? I don’t deserve it! But God gives it anyway! I know what keeps me away from sharing w/ everyone! My own fears of how people will react, and Satan, there is a spiritual war out there, lift up all your prayers in Jesus’ name that his will be done.

I like Blue, I like blue a lot! I like old school Prince. I like my apartment, my car, my stuff to be clean. I love people. And now for the first time, I like the way I physically look, and you know what, not much has changed, just my attitude. There are a few quirks I don’t like, I’m still getting over the touchy thing, Because of the sexual assaults against me in my teen years still linger, I have a problem with hugging people, and simply being touched in an affectionate way, but I will overcome this, God will do this in me! I pray that I remain in his will!

Sit Travis, Stay Travis, Be still. Listen for him, he is there. Have faith his plans are good. Stay in his will. Never lose the passion for him.

Right now as I look out my window, over the balcony, and down at the play area, I see children playing kick ball. They laugh, they smile, they are happy. What happens to those things? Have faith like a child. Lift up your voice to God, sing praise. God has infinite love for us, for me, for you, for everyone.

Okay enough about me. What about you?


So we look at the Sun, and we feel its warmth.
There?s something about the sun that reminds us of your love.

And we look at the earth, and we see its beauty.
There?s something about the earth, which makes us see your glory.

We see the moon, it reflects the sun.
There?s something about the moon, which reminds us of your son.

The sun gives life to the Earth and light to the moon.
We just want to stand at the ocean,
turn our faces to the sun feel the warmth,
watch the beauty of the Earth all day,
ponder at the moon and the stars.

Every day the sun rises
Every day the earth turns
Every day the moon shines

You?ll just have to wait.

When I look into your eyes they will sparkle.

When I see your smile I will smile.

When we talk we will finish each others thoughts.

When we are alone God will be there.

We will annoy each other.

We will play with each other.

I seek for you my love.

I want the time to worship our God with you.

I see our children laughing and playing.

We love people because we love Jesus and he loves us.

But for now I wait.

For now I grow with God.

God is my soul mate.

My soul was created for a relationship with him.

Your soul was created to be filled by him.

I seek him and him alone.

You will be my gift from him.

And together we will grow for him.

For now you?ll just have to wait.

Because I am not ready.

No I?m not ready.

Not ready.

This is Travis

I usually get a mocha or frapacinio mostly when I’m with people or on my way to something entertaining.
I am chronically late to work.
I have a new found love of writing.
I am a chameleon but don’t care.
If I’ve tried it a few times before and didn’t like it, then I won’t do it again.
Sometimes I do things I don’t like because I would rather be doing something with people.
I love Jesus.
I love people.
I wish I was an affectionate person, but I have a mental block with it.
I like the outdoors, but only in perfect conditions.
I love driving, even bad traffic.
I like decorating and making things look neat.
I don’t care if people use my car, as long as I give them permission.
I want a Godly wife.
I want kids, preferably one boy and one girl, but whatever God gives me is good.
I love music, all kinds.
I want to be more blunt, not so much tolerance, no more wishy washy.
I want to shine w/ God’s love to others.
Tolerance is not love.
I will eventually get into Political Science, I’ve always like it I think I”l do that when I get back from Poland.
I’m independent, wasn’t always this way, but now I can be by my self and be ok.
I hate being bored, I have to find something to do.
I like roast beef sandwiches.
I love to praise and worship God.
I nearly have the exact same lunch everyday and I HATE IT!
That lunch- Turkey sub sandwich w/ Mayo, lettuce, tomato, onion with American and Swiss cheese, and either fries (if all they have is nasty Caesar salad) or green salad and potato salad.
I try to not worry about tomorrow; I’m usually successful in this area.
I wasn’t cut out for school part time, and work full time.
I like cats, and I like only smart dogs.
I like fish, but find it really annoying getting a fish tank working right.
I like all kinds of music, a lot of stuff others don’t like, but I don’t care, just wish I had the money to buy more, and get better systems to play it on!
I love the city and I love the mountains.
I am never fully happy with my self, but I love my self.
I sin everyday.
I sometimes say things just to be part of the conversation or to have some attention, I always feel retarded afterwards.
I’m a spontaneous buyer.
I love shopping.
I love getting new clothes.
I’m already dead, so I’m going to live for God instead.
Above all of this I love God.

If there is any random person out there who I do not physically know, please tell me what kind of person you think I am… I’m quite curious as to how people may perseve me just by reading my blog.

No matter what I do, what I hear, what I see, what I say or how I react, I will always continue to get closer to people and to God.

I don?t always know who my friends are; I don?t always treat my friends like friends.

I don?t always know if I?m hearing God or my self; I don?t always listen to God when I do know.

I don?t always understand people; sometimes I don?t try to understand people.

I don?t always feel love from others; I don?t always display love towards others.

People who know how to communicate good I admire; sometimes I don?t like what people have to say.

Sometimes I just look out at the earth, and I see pure beauty, the mountains are awesome, the sun reflects off the water, the sky is blue, the birds sing, the squirrels play. Other times I look at the city and I see amazing structures of man, the reflection of the mountains, water and sky off the buildings is amazing. Both the creations of Man and God are amazing, but God?s are awesome, and they were created divinely.

When I start to get confused about life, people and God, I just have to calm down, stop thinking and look around me. I think god created the ?keep it simple? rule, when you make life too complicated it will get confusing.

I will always be there for my friends, and family. I will always look for the opportunity to serve people and to meet their needs. I will be a servant to others and to the Lord. Although I can hardly get up in the morning for work, my desire is to serve people. Whatever you need, if I can do it, I will.

.: prayers, prayer requests :.

Father God you fill my heart with your awesome love and glory!

I ask for you to give me the passion and desire to serve people everyday, I want to be in your will, I want to serve you and your people. Lord, I ask for the opportunity to show your love and life to all I meet and interact with for the rest of my days here. I also ask that you put people in my life who will challenge me; and others who will be there for accountability.

Lord I thank you for giving me the power to overcome my sins the last few weeks, I thank you for your grace and forgiveness, help me to continue this path of change and discovery of who you really are and to do your work. I ask for continued support every day, I know I can fall anytime, but I don?t want to, I want to live in freedom and you have provided me that path. Your love endures forever your kingdom reigns forever, you remain the same, you are never changing, THANKS!

Thank you Lord for my friends, each and every one of them! I am so thankful for them, they have all helped me in some way to grow and become a better person. But, even though they are all awesome, I ask for a brother who I can be specifically accountable with, a brother who may also need the same accountability. Lord I also pray for whoever my future wife is, I simply lift her up and I pray that your power and love just pour into her life and the life of her friends. I pray for all the people I will be meeting when I go to Poland, Lord I ask for you to give me the courage and the wisdom to talk to people here at home about what you have asked me to do for you. I ask you to just prepare everyone for the next 2 years of many changes and I ask for you to be with me, all my friends and family, and to never have any of us leave you, I ask for your protection too. Thank you lord.

In my Savior?s Name, Jesus Christ,

Amen!

Jesus Teaches about Asking, Looking, Knocking [Mathew 7:7-11]

?Keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for. Keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And the door is opened to everyone who knocks. You parents–if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! If you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.?

The Golden Rule [Mathew 7:12]

?Do for others what you would like them to do for you. This is a summary of all that is taught in the law and the prophets.?

So i’m on the move again. I’ll be back on Sunday. So I leave you with this.

Everything in bold I found to be applicable in my life at the moment

To learn, you must love discipline; it is stupid to hate correction.

The LORD approves of those who are good, but he condemns those who plan wickedness.

Wickedness never brings stability; only the godly have deep roots.

A worthy wife is her husband’s joy and crown; a shameful wife saps his strength.

The plans of the godly are just; the advice of the wicked is treacherous.

The words of the wicked are like a murderous ambush, but the words of the godly save lives.

The wicked perish and are gone, but the children of the godly stand firm.

Everyone admires a person with good sense, but a warped mind is despised.

It is better to be a nobody with a servant than to be self-important but have no food.

The godly are concerned for the welfare of their animals, but even the kindness of the wicked is cruel.

Hard work means prosperity; only fools idle away their time.

Thieves are jealous of each other’s loot, while the godly bear their own fruit.

The wicked are trapped by their own words, but the godly escape such trouble.

People can get many good things by the words they say; the work of their hands also gives them many benefits.

Fools think they need no advice, but the wise listen to others.

A fool is quick-tempered, but a wise person stays calm when insulted.

An honest witness tells the truth; a false witness tells lies.

Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing.

Truth stands the test of time; lies are soon exposed.

Deceit fills hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace!

No real harm befalls the godly, but the wicked have their fill of trouble.

The LORD hates those who don’t keep their word, but he delights in those who do.

Wise people don’t make a show of their knowledge, but fools broadcast their folly.

Work hard and become a leader; be lazy and become a slave.

Worry weighs a person down; an encouraging word cheers a person up.

The godly give good advice to their friends; the wicked lead them astray.

Lazy people don’t even cook the game they catch, but the diligent make use of everything they find.

The way of the godly leads to life; their path does not lead to death.

[Proverbs 12]

I learned a lot, made awesome friends, boosted my self confidence, my self image, and my self esteem, but i’m tired physically and mentally but not emotionally! God is (insert the best compliment you can think of).

So I leave you with this.

He made the earth by his power,and he preserves it by his wisdom.

He has stretched out the heavens by his understanding.

When he speaks, there is thunder in the heavens.

He causes the clouds to rise over the earth.

He sends the lightning with the rain and releases the wind from his storehouses.

Compared to him, all people are foolish and have no knowledge at all!

They make idols, but the idols will disgrace their makers, for they are frauds.

They have no life or power in them.

Idols are worthless; they are lies!

The time is coming when they will all be destroyed.

But the God of Israel is no idol!

He is the Creator of everything that exists, including his people, his own special possession.

The LORD Almighty is his name!


[Jeremiah 51:15-19]