PRAISE GOD!
I had nothing to worry about, my class was canceled!!! YAY
Right now I have this nasty feeling in my gut, I guess you’de call them, butterflies… I really don’t want to go to class, since last week I made a fool of my self and forgot we had a presentation, so I snuck out of class, but now I don’t know what we are doing tonight, which is the last day of class… ARG. I hate it when I put myself in these situations, but at least I know it is never as bad as I think it will be. Anyway pray for me! 🙂 I am so excited to hear Don speak tonight! He’s an awesome spaker, and CRU will be great… we can go out and celebrate the end of the quarter! Anyway, have fun everyone and i’ll see most of ya soon. 🙂
Thank God for guy friends! It’s been a while since I?ve had a group of just guy friends… actually its been since about 6th grade… So, yeah… I enjoyed tonight A LOT, even though their was some awkwardness, but that’s all good. I just have to thank a good buddy for introducing me to these great guys. I am almost embarrassed to say this, but I like Halo! I really, really suck! But I like it, so I?ll get better. I can?t wait until we hook up four boxes at my place and play 16 man Halo! So? anyway, thanks for the great guys to hang out with, God, your awesome.
I think it?s really important for guys to have guy friends, and ladies to have lady friends… I use to think it wasn’t necessary but I like it, and I?m not sure why it?s good, but it just feels right.
Another note….
If there is anyone out there reading these things, please post your comments… go back and look at some of the older ones… please… I like to know things. Let me know what you think , you don’t have to agree, maybe you’ll make me think about something I haven’t before. I love finding out new things, learning different ways of doing things, and most of all I love hearing from people. Even if you don’t have something nice to say, say it, that’s what I love the most, I really do try to be an open person.
Thanks!
Let’s Roll
We as believers of Christ, know true love, correct?
We as followers of God, know truth, correct?
We as people with the Holy Spirit, know right and wrong, correct?
We as children of God, know, feel, and love people, correct?
Why do we keep this love, hope, and sense of security, everything that we get from God, to our selves? I think we should all in some way be striving to love people, the way Christ loves people. I think we should all want to grow stronger, know more, feel more, be more in contact with God. I think I am upset at the church for not reaching our own communities, in the United States! We should all make it a point to know, befriend, and to talk to more non-Christians than Christians! Now, of course only do this if you are strong enough to not fall again? At least we have the reassurance that his love is forever, we can not fall too far. Amen.
So.
Let?s roll.
.: prayers, prayer requests :.
Jesus, you are awesome, you reign in our lives forever!
I ask that you give everyone of your followers the fire, the burning desire, and the excitement to talk to others about you, we have this awesome gift, now let?s share it!
Help me to become stronger, and less afraid to share you word, remove the thoughts that are not yours! Thank you for putting me in such a secular environment, that I can be only thankful for you everyday. I can?t take you for granite because I see how I was everyday!
I want to see you enter the lives of every person, student, co-worker that I come in contact with! I ask for Satan?s plans to be destroyed, in Jesus? awesome name, and for Jesus? plans to reign through out my entire life, and every Christian on the face of Earth.
I ask all of these and every other need of my brothers and sisters to be answered, in your son?s name.
Amen.
The Great Commission [Mathew 28:16-20]
16 Then the eleven disciples left for Galilee, going to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17 When they saw him, they worshiped him–but some of them still doubted! 18 Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given complete authority in heaven and on earth. 19 Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. 20 Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”
To You
You are everything
You made my world
Everything it is
Without you I?d be dead
Lost in life
I don?t know how I ever survived
This is the life
The life you brought to me
I love you
I love every part of you
Life loved by you
Because of you
You gave everything
I give everything back to you
I own nothing
You own it all
I?m chasing after you
To get to know you more
I owe my life to you
I?m in love with you
You are my life
You?re the center of my life
Don?t let me fall
Keep me near
Bad days at work.
So I got up late again
And I take the same old highway into work
I go to the meeting where I?m told what needs to be done
I get stuck doing stuff I think someone else could do
I know that I should cheerfully work, but that’s hard to do
When I?m done at that school I go back up the highway
And up the Big Rock road
I enter the high school, and smell the, oh so pleasant, smell of cafeteria food
I take two seconds to hear what wrong for the day
And I book my self to lunch where I try and forget the day
At lunch all they do is complain about the world
They have no hope, no desire, just to try and make it in the world
I pray that they ask me, what makes me tick
So I can tell them of the desire to live for God
I also pray for myself, that I can show the desires of God
After lunch, is when all H, E, double hockey sticks, breaks out
I get dragged in five different directions at once
Computers 5, 7, 9 don’t work in room 123
All the new computers don’t do this and that right
And my email won’t send to who I want, but works fine for the people I don’t want to…
At this point I want to literally
Run through the halls of my high school,
I want to scream at the top of my lungs
So I scream it to my friends online
It?s all good, God takes the rest
I finally leave, get to my other job
Where I finally take a breather for the day
All is good, and good is all
Thank you God, for another good day.
Today I did.
Down the curving road, and into the valley I went
Around that bend, and this bend, into town I went
I went through town, the lights twinkling on the town tree
In this town, there’s no such thing as a shopping spree
I drive through town, and back into the open valley
The sun glistening off the morning dew
I turn up the CD player, and start praisin’ the almighty
Down the highway, I only see a few
I get to work in the next small town
The kid’s all look very down
I think to my self, God they need help
Then I smile at the kid next to me
He smiles back
I ask God to use me
He tells me he already has
I tell him thanks, and go back to work
Okay, so i’m really bored tonight, but i’m having fun! So I take this “What’s your theme song” test on emode.com and it says that “All Star” by SmashMouth is it… guess what… that’s the song i’ve used in the past for my theme song… I love it! Notice the comment at the top of my comments comes from it… sorta… Anyway here’s what they had to say…
All Star
With your elevated spirit and go-with-the-flow attitude, “All Star” is the theme song for you. It’s the tune that you’re humming when you decide to hop in your car and spend a weekend somewhere you’ve never been. And it’s the song you blare on auto-repeat when you’re getting lost (though you might call it “exploring”) in that same new spot. You know life is sweetest when you live it to its fullest. The risks you take usually pay off, from starting your own business to relocating to another town. You aren’t afraid to hit the brakes and speed off in a new direction. Your friends may scratch their heads and wonder when you’re going to settle down. But you are definitely not your friends. And when exciting opportunities present themselves, “you’ll never know if you don’t go, you’ll never shine if you don’t glow.” You only get one quarter to play this game, and with “All Star” as your inner beat, you’re aiming for high score.
I then take the “Who’s your inner rock star” test and they say…
Eminem
Oh yeah, the rock star in you is definitely the ultimate bad boy, Eminem. You are a risk taker and a rebel who never sticks to the straight and narrow. Your irrepressible energy means that nothing can keep you down. You and Eminem rise to any challenge, doing and saying the outrageous and shocking whenever you feel like it, and keeping the fans on their toes with your controversial views. Look at it this way: a man like you knows how to find the perfect medium to channel your frustrations with the world. And lo and behold, we can’t get enough of you. Keep your inner Eminem real.
So after that laugh I take it again and get…
Ricky Martin
Que hombre, ay yai yai. The rock star part of you is all Ricky Martin. You’ve got moves that make the ladies hearts go a-flutter, and style that goes for miles. That suave Latin charm is just too intoxicating, and it means that wherever you go, people read superstar all over you. Behind those bright eyes simmers a sensual lover who knows just what a woman wants. You’re smooth, and we mean real smooth, but you don’t let it go to your head (well not too often). And anyway, that irrepressible charm makes it all OK. Hey, it’s not your fault that you’ve got more charisma than a tamale’s got hot. Just enjoy it. Feed your inner Ricky.
And because i’m impossibly bored…. It’s the “What friend are you!” test… 🙂
Joey
How you doin’? Your inner Joey Tribbiani wants to know. Like the real Joey, people can feel your presence and red-hot, sex appeal the minute you walk in the room. And your good intentions are never far behind (even if you do let a secret or two slip at the wrong moments). The point is, your honesty and sweet-natured charm can get you out of any situation because you always mean well.
Your hidden strength may just be your tenacity. Did Joey give up acting because Dr. Drake Ramoray was killed off the soap opera? Nope. And even after he failed as Al Pacino’s butt double he didn’t abandon his dreams. So keep that in mind, aim high, and keep being the friend that your friends love having around.
By a friend
This is what I feel
Comfort is so underrated
I’d rather the old comfy love of a friend
than the new fangled lust of a stranger
the hotter you burn, the colder you turn when it’s over
one day you could move a mountain with your feelings,
the next you just want to lay down and die.
and you’ve gained nothing for your pains
not an ounce of support did he lend to you in need
and now he’s gone and you are so glad
yet you’ve lost something of yourself that you needed
Where do you get it back?
who gives you back pieces of yourself?
your friend(s)
plural if your’re lucky
Your friend who’s been there forever
your friend who knows your worst and your best
A friend who will always care
and be there a smile and hug
a comfy love of security and history
you’ve been there for them
they’ll be there for you.
and your friend can give you back your heart
no matter who you gave some of it to,
you gave more to them
and your friend has parts of you that can be replenished
so you’ll both have enough and some to spare
A friend’s love is the love that I want in my life
A friend’s love is better than any relationship and its false promises
a broken stare traded for an open heart
a dirty touch erased by a cleansing hand
A hurt in your soul can be healed by this love
that doesn’t acknowledge barriers or distance
and revels in encouragement
My friend is the one who I will always have
I will always have that comfortable love
that heals and mends and helps me to grow
into the person I was meant to be
far away from all i’ve been through
into a new future of hope
My friend helps me bring along all that is good
and helps me to toss the bad.
So I will cherish this love
the friendship(s) that make life worth it
and i will always want it more than any other thing
*** Disclaimer: This is only sometimes, some groups, and not even always the same group….***
I’m involved with so many people, but why am I not in any of the stories or pictures? Why am I always the wallflower, the guy that people never mention in the stories or see in the pictures? Why can?t I just be comfortable, why can?t I just come out of my shell? Why do I always want to do something different, but never have the guts? Why can?t I ever flirt with a girl? Why am I never hugged when everyone else is? Why do I feel all weird, or stupid when I give hugs? Why do I always seem like I?m untouchable to people when all want is to be touched, emotionally as well as affectionately? Why when I do finally attempt to break my mold I make a stupid fool of my self and no one laughs, and think I?m just weird? Why when I speak, do I feel retarded? Why can?t I function in groups? Why am I so frustrated around natural leaders? Why can?t I lead? Why has God put people on my heart, but I can?t seem to communicate it? I love people, but can?t make a difference. I don?t understand people who follow, I don?t want to be a follower, I don?t believe I am, but sometimes I feel like a follower and I hate it. Why am I always afraid to interact with a girl who I?m actually attracted to (this is not a common occurrence)? I eventually do, but I never know what to do, I never have the guts to ask her on a date, WHY? Why am I so afraid of rejection? Why am I so conscience of people?s interactions, and my lack thereof? I only want to be real with people; I don?t want to be fake. I want to be, show, live, and radiate Jesus in everything I do, but I don?t, I just sit there as if I?ve been stunned by the people’s eyes.
I want to be confident.
I want to be a leader with a plan, with respect.
I don?t want to be lazy anymore.
I don?t want to fall to temptation.
I want to show Christ in EVERYTHING I do.
I want to know God even more, every day I want more of God.
My problem right now?
I don?t have a friend at the same understanding of God, with the same convictions, with the same heart for all people, I need a friend who I can partner with, console with, show Christ with! I have awesome friends, awesome friends who love God, who love people, who have the same convictions, but there is something missing in me? God has filled my spirit with His Holy Spirit, I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior? but there is still something missing, I am incomplete? I need a wife. Not now, but eventually yes. I am not even looking right now, God has other plans for now, but I needed to vent, I needed to just let everyone know what I?m struggling with, because otherwise I wouldn?t. Thanks for reading.
.: prayers, prayer requests :.
Father God,
You are rad, awesome, cool, and just a good thing.
Let your name always be radical, always be trouble to people, and always be honored.
May your Kingdom grow, may people learn of your true love, may the people stop being legalistic, stop being petty about you, and start loving you and your people and all people of the Earth!
I give up my will, my plans, my ideas for yours Lord.
Help me to over come temptation, I praise you for the strength you?ve given me this past week.
I thank you that I am loved by my friends, my family and by you.
I ask all of these things in your Son?s name, Jesus Christ.
Amen.
Love measured by how we treat others? [Mathew 10:40-42]
40 “Anyone who welcomes you is welcoming me, and anyone who welcomes me is welcoming the Father who sent me. 41 If you welcome a prophet as one who speaks for God,* you will receive the same reward a prophet gets. And if you welcome good and godly people because of their godliness, you will be given a reward like theirs. 42 And if you give even a cup of cold water to one of the least of my followers, you will surely be rewarded.”
Love your enemies! [Luke 6:27-36]
27 “But if you are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies. Do good to those who hate you. 28 Pray for the happiness of those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn the other cheek. If someone demands your coat, offer your shirt also. 30 Give what you have to anyone who asks you for it; and when things are taken away from you, don’t try to get them back. 31 Do for others as you would like them to do for you. 32 “Do you think you deserve credit merely for loving those who love you? Even the sinners do that! 33 And if you do good only to those who do good to you, is that so wonderful? Even sinners do that much! 34 And if you lend money only to those who can repay you, what good is that? Even sinners will lend to their own kind for a full return. 35 “Love your enemies! Do good to them! Lend to them! And don’t be concerned that they might not repay. Then your reward from heaven will be very great, and you will truly be acting as children of the Most High, for he is kind to the unthankful and to those who are wicked. 36 You must be compassionate, just as your Father is compassionate.